I am…
I am angry because I want to be.
I am unhappy because I choose it.
I am not in control because I’ve controlled the wrong causes.
I am not getting anywhere because I want to be afraid.
I am blaming because I can’t face myself.
I am impatient because I want it on my terms.
I am dissatisfied because I don’t want to do what’s necessary.
I am deeply disturbed because I am in denial in the truth of existence.
~Tsem Rinpoche
(Picture taken in Gaden Monastery. I am holding the reincarnation of my Root Lama, His Holiness Kyabje Zong Rinpoche. He was such a incredible and beautiful child and growing up to be a great Scholar like his previous incarnation.)





























































Thanks Rinpoche. Well said. I should contemplate and self reflect on those word on my current state. Thanks.
Thank you, Rinpoche, for another dose of Dharma medicine.
True, indeed, that our ego and self-centeredness make us think that we are on top of all situations, but we are not.
We think we know what is happiness and we repeatedly do the same things in order to get the illusory and delusory ‘happiness’ for a moment or a while and we are unhappy/discontented again.If we keep chasing and not find anything that has the shape or color or flavor of lasting happiness, then why do we delude ourselves and continue to engage in the same mode of chasing? Why do we choose to bark up the wrong tree again and again?It’s because whenever we chase after ‘mistaken’ objects of happiness, we feel ‘confident’ because our ego tells us we are in control of the situation.
In every situation and experience, we let our ego and self-grasping take charge and we won’t let go. That’s why as long as we won’t let go, we will always be unhappy and dissatisfied and we’ll never have an opportunity to begin working on getting back the sanity of our essential nature of love, care,clarity and peace.(For ‘here’ is where we will definitely be in control of everything including our happiness).